if I’m being honest, I’m unsure of what to write tonight. I’m unsure of how to pour my heart out to you because I haven’t been feeling much lately. I haven’t been feeling much, since I was told that I am clinically depressed, and that I need to get help so I can stop suffocating and weeping in my mess, fear and stress.
I’m better, but I’m not okay. I’m unsure of how to tell my loved ones that things aren’t good, and that education, that I once loved, is something of a lull in comparison to me wanting to create and be a different me. my purpose is in-line, it’s there and I can see it. but,
I can’t seem to figure out how to walk in a straight line to get there because I’m tired, and my feet are worn out from the constant running over the past 13 years.
I’m tired, I’m dealing with depression and I’m unsure of where my future is going. but, I know that living in the present, and taking each day one day at a time, is what’s going to get me to where I need to be. it’s the hardest, and most time consuming way to get there – but I’ll get there in the end, and that’s what’s important.