I want to give up, and I’ve wanted to for a while. to throw the towel in and stop reaching out to people, and giving my heart to people that don’t even understand it. my heart is hurting. my heart hurts a lot, and I don’t know what to do anymore. the only thing holding me together is knowing that the One who created the earth is on my side and He’s working for me, and not against me.
I feel like I’m mourning friendships that I’ve held in high regard for such a long time. I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of people, I’m tired of life and I just want to not exist. I’m tired of people and their half-hearted friendships and relationships. I’m tired of being there for people all the time and it being handed back to me with a full on slap on my face. If you want the truth, I’m done.
It gets to a point where you can give so much, and it’s not given back, that you just stop. I’m exhausted, so I’m stopping.